Sunday, January 30, 2011

I'm weightless....

The sky is the limit
And I just wanna flow
Free as a spirit on a journey of hope
Cut the strings and let me go
I'm weightless, I'm weightless
Millions of balloons heading to the ground
Weight of the world tries to hold us down
Cut the strings and let me go
I'm weightless, I'm weightless,
I'm weightless, I'm weightless...

That's from my current musical addiction Weightless by Natasha Beddingfield, vid here. Too many times we become obsessed with the numbers on a scale, but we never think about why. Why do you want to be 160lbs, why do you think you'd be happy if only you could get to 125 pounds?? If you're like me, you cant even remember the last time you were that weight, or that was your weight in middle school!! Why did you pick that number? Dont say because that's when you have a healthy BMI, we've been told for years that system is outdated, plus it's always a range, for example I'd be 'healthy' between 155 and 115. Why did I pick 150? and not 155 or 130??

Ok, where is this coming from... I have been sick for the past week, my wisdom teeth giving me problems again. So I couldnt work out much. It's funny that if I dont get my exercise in for a few days in a row, I can feel it. I mean I dont feel the definition of my abs or thigh muscles as much. In other words I feel out of shape, fat. Of all the weeks to move, my scale choses this one! I lost 3.4lbs this week. I was 209lbs yesterday, I cant remember ever being that small, but I dont feel that small.

Numbers on a scale are just that...numbers on a scale. They dont really mean much. My reason for embarking on this journey is to get more in shape, to feel more in shape, and that has nothing to do with what the scale says. I'm weightless really. So this week, be proud of how far you've come and how much you've accomplished. No, not in terms of numbers on that scale, but just how good you feel....


Sunday, January 23, 2011

Plateau Broken!

I was seriously beginning to doubt my sanity over the last 2 weeks. I went from AuntFlo's 5lb gain straight into a plateau. I hate getting on the scale and seeing the same number all week. Yesterday I was just demoralized, didnt feel like working out, so I didnt. I didnt have much of an appetite either so in the end it balanced out...ate 1400cals, BodyMedia says I burnt 2500cals. Anyway, I wasnt optimistic at all when I hopped on the scale today, in fact I had a SlimFast shake in my hand while I was on the scale, lol... My scale blinks a few times before it shows a number. So blink, blink, blink...and 211.2...AAAAAAAH. Ok, I know it's 'just' 1.4lbs, but if you had been stuck at the same number for as long as I had, even 0.1oz is cause for celebration. So 28.6lbs gone, 30lbs...I can smell you just round the corner. Now I'm motivated to workout, Turbo Fire HIIT 20 and 30DS today

Happy Sunday pals :)

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Progress Pics Page

As much as I love motivating others, it's really hard to get myself out of a funk when I fall into one. Weight moving...UP, for no reason I can think off. Work = hell. Mood = lower than...well just low.
Anyhoo, added a progress pics page, hoped it would motivate didnt, haha. But I hope it motivates YOU! :)

Friday, January 14, 2011

Turbo Fire Week 1

So today marks the end of my first week of TurboFire. I must say I'm proud of myself because the only day I skipped a workout was when I was supposed to, lol. I love it so far. I am sweating and jumping and burning tons of calories...which are all my most favorite things to do. I wont check my measurements until week 3 or 4, because I dont want to get disappointed. We all know it takes a few weeks before the results start rolling in, but you're always tempted to check, this time I wont.

Starting measurements:
Upper arm: 14in
Bra band: 35in (I doubt that will change, I can see my ribcage now)
Over belly buttom: 38in
Waist: 38in
Upper Thighs: 27in
Lower Thighs: 22in
Calves: 17in

Weight: 212.4lbs or 96.5kg
My favorite so far is the 55 EZ class, burnt almost 800cals in an hour, how awesome is that?? I was sweating like a piglet and slept like a baby that night.
Weight-wise, Aunt Flo is here visiting, so... ladies you know how that goes. I'm up 6lbs....SIX. Dagnamit. Ready to get this over with. I miss my 212... But that is the price we pay to be women. Back next week with my weigh-in, and more on TurboFire.
Keep working, keep sweating!!


Friday, January 7, 2011

2011 Projects, yes not resolutions, Projects.

It's funny, I can't remember the last year I actually sat down and listed or thought about New Year's resolutions. At some point I realized that I never got any of those 'visions of grandeur' started let alone completed. I guess it was around the same time I decided that life was too short for planning, and detailing. I decided that to get the most out of my life, I had to live like there was no tomorrow and make sure I enjoyed everyday. Whether I got everything I was supposed to do done or not, as long as I enjoyed the year; I was happy.

Haha, I definitely do not follow THAT doctrine anymore. This year I still believe that life is short, but now I think this means I can not and should not waste any moments, and get things done! The only way you can do this successfully is to list (or at least think about) what I need/want to complete, and come up with a strategy how I'll do that. I hate the word 'resolutions'; it reminds me of the tens of resolutions I never touched. Soo...I'm going to call mine 'projects'. Yes, I like the sound of that, the things I want to do are not do-able overnight. They indeed are projects, and here they are:

1. Become more social and outgoing: I hate small talk, I hate going to places with people I do not know so this one will be a challenge, but I realize it needs to get done. Too many times I am in my own little world, I have so much love and fun to share. It's selfish of me to keep me to myself :D. Now how will I do this? Talk more, call people more, actually return phonecalls, more movie nights, and girly outings...and all the other things the rest of y'all socialites do.

2. Get more in shape!!: I wont label this one as 'lose weight'. I have already started on that one and I wont stop, so... instead I want to be stronger and build on my endurance. How will I get there? SWEATING, and JUMPING, and DANCING. I just started TurboFire...and Oh Man!! IT whooped my behind!! I will be writing more about TurboFire and the workouts, and how I'm doing, and my measurements and progress a lot from now on. After that I'll move to ChaLEAN Extreme :)

3. See my family: To ensure that I do not get emotional and boo hoo all over my keyboard and freak out my co-workers; I will not go into details of how much I miss them, how long it has been, how hard etc. The point is I want to make it a point this year to see them, even if I have to move heavens and high waters to do it. Period.

4. Love my Sweetheart more and more and more: Self explanatory.

5. Organize and go to my highschool reunion. It has been almost 7 would be nice to see everyone again. Plus it would have to be in Zimbabwe (my home), so that's a plus.

Most resolutions or in my case projects (lol) fail because people start working on them in October. I'm starting now.

Love tons,

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

The girl in my dreams...

When I close my eyes, my dreams play out in front of me.
I see myself exactly as I should be.
I see the smile, I hear the laughter
I see myself dance, twirl.
Confidence, joy, poise, hope, grace
Loving the world in the palm of my hands...
I hug myself and giggle, I love this dream.
I slowly open my eyes and look at the mirror in front of me.
The smile vanishes
I drop my arms, my eyes water.
The girl I saw in my dreams is not the girl staring back at me....

But every time I dream she is there,
She wonders why I wont join her;
why I wont share in her joy, in her journey.
The control and freedom in her hands feels better than any food.
The chance to run like the wind, or swim in the ocean without fear
is worth the sweat and devotion...

I will not make her wait any longer.

The girl in my dreams was 90lbs away a few months ago, after
27lbs she's only 63lbs away. So close, so close. I'm coming to you MystiQue.
And I will not let you down.

Decided to suck it up and add some before and after pics for my blog and FB friends...
They wont be up for long though, so get ur fill fast :)



Sunday, January 2, 2011

Day 1: Purpose and Poise

A moment of pain, or a minute of pleasure;
are nothing short of a drop in all the oceans combined.
That burning love, that burst of joy is nothing but
fine dust floating away on a breeze.
For too long we hold on to memories and dreams
For too long we hold on to nothingness
We spend years pursuing a desire a seemingly worthy need
We spend years pursuing dust...

Regrardless of how cliche-ish this sounds; a new year really is a chance for a new start. I am making that new beginning. For too many years I have held on to past hurts and turned them into excuses for living my present. For too long I have held on to past successes, and used them as absolution for procrastination. Yeah, um...not anymore. Life is too short.

Shorter than a sunrise, less than a sigh,
Less than the blink of His eye,
That is how long life truly is

This past year I have made a lot of changes, this new year I plan on moving on to a new level. This blog is my diary, my recording of the progress and failures I will no doubt make in 2011. This blog is advice for you, sometimes entertainment...either way you will learn a lot about me and about you....